I tend to engage in regret, and in the past, this has brought me to my knees, in tears, praying for things to be undone. But they can’t be undone. Should I go into denial - or blame someone else? When I regret my past actions, or when I deny responsibility for time being, or the outcome of it, I am suffering. And without suffering there would be no compassion. When I blame someone else for woes, like a boomerang the hurt flies back to me. While I am regretting and blaming and denying what has been done, I’m trapped in the eternal circle of suffering, or samara and death pervaded by suffering. .
I can’t take credit for the solution – but thinking it through, the only real answer to the question of my Y’s!! I don't know the first thing about being someone's boot... I don’t know... just bcos I don’t want to subsist for instance wanna bees...I'm just tired of doing the same old shit everyday. There was no place like this in my ground…
I am quite aware of the fact that I am here, an ordinary woman for the sole reason that I am. I have learned that there is no guarantee at any point with my wishes to God and those of ignorance will coincide.
I love my past. I love my present. I'm not ashamed of what I've had, and I'm not sad because I have it no longer. In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on... .
Thought:
“We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned, So as to accept the life that is waiting for us!” - Joseph Campbell
